My Journey

Profound challenges from the very beginning have marked my life. Abandoned by my birth mother at two and left without the support of my alcoholic father, growing up in the UK presented anything but an ordinary childhood. This situation instilled a complex mix of values clashed with societal expectations, particularly regarding sex and family.

The pivotal moment of my early life occurred when, at the age of twelve, I endured a traumatic incident of assault and rape by a stranger in a car. This traumatic experience, combined with my tumultuous upbringing, shaped my journey. It caused me to mature at a different pace than my peers, as I lacked the support necessary for learning and personal growth. The assault also disrupted my ability to engage in relationships, and I didn’t feel ready for romantic pursuits until my early twenties.

Navigating Relationships

The media often portrays women in a limited and objectified manner. I firmly reject this objectification and emphasize respecting women as individuals, not mere objects. The prevalent message pressures women to conform to society’s standards of beauty, which I find deeply problematic.

In my quest for a genuine and trustworthy partner, I encountered disappointments, even from individuals like teachers and social workers who should have been reliable sources of support. Societal pressures and media influences often lead people astray in the search for love. Shallow criteria, such as appearance and wealth, should not be the sole determinants of a fulfilling partnership.

Women are not just about sex; their lives have depth and substance. They often seek partners who contribute positively to society and value education. This desire for meaningful connections goes beyond physical appearance.


Sometimes, I ponder whether there are underlying motives guiding our society’s actions. The societal pressure on young individuals to focus on procreation, driven by familial expectations and media influences, can be overwhelming. It’s as if society has reduced the purpose of human existence to procreation alone. Perhaps, as humans, we’ve lost our way and are following this path out of uncertainty.

I’ve even considered that the media might contribute to broader agendas that fuel conflicts and wars, benefiting the rich and powerful. Notably, naturalist David Attenborough suggested that overpopulation strains our planet’s resources. He proposed empowering women with control over their bodies and access to contraceptives could help address this issue. This thought prompted me to explore alternative family structures like the Kibbutz, offering potential solutions.

The Complexities of War

As I’ve grown older, my life has been marked by the trauma of my assault and my struggles with endometriosis. Observing global conflicts largely orchestrated by older white men has raised questions. Could the media’s fixation on sex serve their motives? Is there an attempt to create a larger population to fuel economic interests and supply soldiers for their battles?

War inflicts immeasurable suffering and pain, causing nations to prioritize population growth and treat individuals as mere resources. This approach leads to environmental devastation and the extinction of precious wildlife, affecting women’s health and access to nutritious food.

Exploring with ChatGPT

In my journey of expressing these thoughts and ideas, I’ve explored the insights and support provided by ChatGPT, an AI language model. ChatGPT has played a role in helping me articulate my ideas and connect with a wider audience. It has been invaluable in exploring these complex topics, enhancing my ability to convey these thoughts and foster meaningful conversations.